FESTIVA

 

GARAFIA, ISLE OF LA PALMA, CANARY ISLANDS / 2016

One afternoon, Kata, Antje's red cat comes calling.

We play—I tug his stuffed, pink dinosaur and he bats and fight; legs wrapped around the faded, plush body. Eventually, he curls up next to me and falls asleep on the striped patio bed.

Before I can blink, it is four o’clock and I am due at Antje’s shop. We are going to the nearby town of Puntagorda to see the local mercado (market) and attend an African culture festival. Hurriedly, I lock the door to my little cabin and bound down the trail to the town square. When I arrive, there are a surprising number of people in the plaza. Usually, it feels forgotten by time—just a few old men drinking wine at a plastic table in the corner.

Inside Antje’s shop, I see a German couple that I passed on the Camino Real de la Costa earlier that day. We exchange niceties and as they leave, Antje introduces me to another man. She nods at him and asks, “Can we take this one to Puntagorda, also?”

He is tall and wiry with brown, curly hair, a scruffy beard, hands stuffed in his pockets. A shoulder bag is slung across his chest and he wears faded, brown cords, and sandals; his black cap is tilted slightly. Che Guevara, I think.

“Sure,” I say. 

Before we can leave for Puntagorda, we must wait for Antje to close her shop. Che turns to me. “May I invite you for a drink?” He asks.

Before I can accept, Antje shoos us out of the store. So we walk next door to the local watering hole.

“You would like coffee? Or wine, perhaps?” He holds the door for me as we enter.

“Coffee, por favor,” I reply.

He says his name is Manolo and asks mine. I tell him. The bartender, Petra deftly whips up a caffe sola and I carry it to the table. Monolo also has a coffee but tries to talk me into a shot of Jägermeister. 

I make a face. “En serio?” Really?

“Oh yes. It’s the best. Es un digestivo!”

I shake my head. No, gracias.

Petra rolls her eyes. She pulls out her iPhone.  “Jägermeister es malo,” she states authoritatively. “The best drink is from my country—Czech Republic. Berenchova. See?” She shows us a Google photo of a fancy blue bottle.

Manolo’s emits a gravely laugh and waves her away. Luckily, he drops the idea of Jäger shots. We talk instead of Garafia and La Palma, and his job as a guide for the island’s tourism office. It is one of the rare non-agro or shop jobs in Garafia.

“La Palma is not Spanish,” he says decisively. “Es todo. It’s everything.”

“There is a diverse mix of cultures here—Portuguese, French, Spanish, German, African, Eastern European.”

He digs in his satchel, pulls out a worn, leather pouch of tobacco, and begins to roll a cigarette.

“Regarding our island—“ He licks the rolling paper. “I am an expert here. Whatever you wish to know, I can tell you.” 

Behind the counter, Petra arches a delicate brow and bites back a smirk.

*

When Antje is finally ready, she exits her shop, pulling an empty suitcase behind her. It’s for the handicrafts she will buy at the mercado, she explains.

As we stand in the plaza, her son, Pablo suddenly appears. Where he has been all day, I couldn’t say. He is quiet, shy. and industrious. I often see him around their property—toting grasses, composting, digging, raking, planting. Yesterday, we sat in the sun outside the kitchen house surrounded by a tribe of cats. I bumped along in stilted Spanish as he patiently corrected me. I learned that he likes chess and hiking, is fluent in both German and Spanish, and teaches futbol to kids at the grade school.

“Pablo, kommst du mit uns?” Antje asks him teasingly in German. Will you come with us?

He shakes his head and with a faint blush, nods toward the bar that Manolo and I have just left. It seems to be the place where the entire town goes when work is done. Pablo is a homebody, his mother has told me, and will always choose the familiar.

Behind us, Manolo’s voice crescendos. He has been on a diatribe for some time, but I stopped listening after we left the bar. Now, he is ranting about something a German tourist did; a thing of no real consequence, other than it gives him something to shout passionately about.

“Ay de mi!” he roars, suddenly. Inexplicably. His voice echoes across the plaza and a table of tourists looks up curiously from their plates.

Tranquillo, tranquillo,” Antje whispers, tugging his sleeve. 

We pile into the car. Before we leave town, Manolo asks to stop by the bank. I park across the street and we wait for him, windows down so that the sea air blows through. He stands at the ATM with his legs apart, as if he is facing off against an enemy. After a few moments, he bangs both hands down on the machine. 

Antje and I turn to watch him. She was in the middle of telling me that this particular ATM once had a small, slim opening beneath the machine for trash—receipts and such—and that people (tourists, mainly), thinking that it was the card slot, kept throwing their cards in the garbage by accident. We know that this is not the case with Monolo, the savvy local. The Expert on All Things La Palma. Suddenly, he begins cursing loudly in Spanish. Turning back towards us, hands to the sky, he yells: “It says—I am not enough!”

“Fondos insuficiente,” chuckles Antje. As in: no dinero. We stifle our laughter and shrug sympathetically through the open window. Manolo is a flurry of action as he tries different cards. After several more minutes of cursing and banging, he finally trots back to the car. By some magic he has procured a fistful of Euros. 

“Vamanos!” He exclaims, a triumphant gleam in his eye. “To the festiva!”

*

As we drive, Manolo leans forward between the front seats and expounds on La Palma’s incredible natural features—its abundance of caves, mountains, lush forests, beaches, the diverse flora and fauna. There is even a giant caldera—a collapsed volcano—at its heart, Caldera de Taburiente. It's clear that Manolo wants all visitors to love the island as much as he. I’m not a hard sell, however and tell him that La Palma is definitely a place that everyone should see once in their life. As he rattles on, I focus on hugging the road's snaking curves and then—Antje abruptly tells him to stop talking. 

I would like to speak to Richele now, por favor, since she is gone tomorrow,” she says.  

“Really?” Manolo sounds surprised. He nudges me in the shoulder. “Where are you going?”

“Barcelona and Valencia, then on to Granada.”

“So yes,” Antje repeats. “I would like to tell her some things.”

Claro, claro.” Manolo leans back and placidly rolls another cigarette. I glance at him in the rearview mirror as he stares out the window with a gauzy expression on his face, his thoughts already floating elsewhere.

Antje begins to talk. She was a young mother when she first came to Garafia.

She had three boys and soon after, gave birth to a fourth. Her sons thrived on the island; the older two are now back in Germany, one a museum curator and the other, an outdoor educator for children. Her youngest sons—Pablo and his little brother—split their time between Berlin and Santo Domingo.

Before Antje came to Garafia, she lived a bohemian life. She made art and handicrafts and became a self-taught photographer. Once, she had a job driving trucks through the Andorran mountains. It was in Santo Domingo that she learned how to polish dragon tree seeds in the natural stream that runs through the kitchen of her renovated goat barn. She then turns the lustrous seeds into jewelry which tourists are only too happy to buy.

Now, Antje enjoys a simple life on La Palma. She runs her shop selling artisan goods but still travels as much as possible. An addiction of sorts, she admits.

What she loves most is going to Africa by boat from Grand Canarias. She has visited Gambia and Senegal several times and loves both countries. She even tried to adopt an eight-year-old boy—a Gambian orphan she came to know on her visits—who called her “Mama” and begged her to take him with her as tears rolled down his cheeks. The paperwork went on for years. She prepared her house, applied for the requisite approvals. But it never happened. She found the boy a good school in Gambia and paid for him to attend until he graduated. He has since grown up and has a daughter of his own. 

"And the cycle of poverty repeats," she murmurs.

We talk more about this as we sit, sipping Cokes at the café outside the mercado in Puntagorda. Youssour N’Dour is blaring from the loud speakers as the stage is readied for the main act—a Senegalese band. 

Later, we wander through the mass of dancers, drum circles, and artists, and stroll the farmer’s market where I buy a slab of rosemary goat cheese, chocolate, pears, and anise crackers.

The air is thick with colliding smells—the sweet haze of pastries, tang of cheeses, the keen pinch of spices.

Outside, Antje steers me toward a stand where a woman is selling Gambian curry. In exchange for three euros she hands us plates laden with saffron rice and tender chicken swimming in a froth of coconut milk, dates, currants, and cumin. 

*

That evening, after we we have returned from Puntagorda, Antje comes to my little cabin bearing a steaming pot of Lemongrass tea. She is glad, I think, that I am so happy here. That I find it to be the kind of place I might return. When we were at the café earlier, she took a deep draw off her little pipe and said, “We should meet in Fuerte Ventura next year. There is a nice place on the beach to stay and there will be music and art and handicrafts. And dancing.”

It sounds like magic. And as she says the words, I would like nothing more. Yet, I suddenly realize: there is no such thing as ‘all the time in the world’. We can only see as much of the world as our brief time on earth will allow. Both relief and desperation settle over me as I ponder this.

 

BARRANCO

 

GARAFIA, LA PALMA, CANARY ISLANDS, SPAIN / 2016

While walking towards town, I meet Antje’s son, Pablo. He tells me that when I reach the bottom of the path, instead of turning left into the village I should go to the right and take the trail to the barranco, the ravine.

This trail is the ancient Camino Real de La Costa (The Royal Road of the Coast) and wraps around the entire island, linking the villages and towns

It is marked by three distinct bands of color—red, yellow and white—painted on rocks, posts and signs along the way. It is an ancient road and just how long it has been in use is unknown. The Guanche people (aboriginal Berbers from mainland Africa) inhabited the island beginning in 1000 BC and Roman commander, Pliny the Elder makes mention of the Canary Islands as far back as 50 BC when a Mauretanian expedition landed there to find the abandoned ruins of massive buildings.

I take Pablo's advice and descend into the dense, thicketed canyon. The rock-studded trail is edged with gnarled trees, plump cacti, ferns, palms and succulents. At each steep drop-off, I stop to enjoy the magnificent scenery—a symphony of things blooming and growing, all of it tethered to the dark red, stone-riddled earth. 

At the bottom of the barranco, the steep climbing begins. It is unbelievably hot and the walls of the ravine sway like giant, draped green nets on all sides. Sweat drips into the corners of my eyes and I try and ignore my fluttering heart as my feet slide across a loose fan of rocks near the trail’s edge. I catch my breath and continue to trudge upward, all to aware of the signs along the way that warn: Landslides! Peligro! Danger! After several switchbacks, I stop for a drink of water. Looking around, I notice a small, wooden door built into the mountainside. I sit down on its little stoop and just as I am wondering what could be inside, I hear a soft crunching. 

A man is coming down the path above me carrying a massive bundle of grasses bound with twine. He supports this load with his back, neck and head. As he draws near, I stand hastily and gather up my pack.

“Buen día, señor,” I say. “Disculpe.” Excuse me. I scoot to one side of the narrow trail, away from the little mountainside door and keenly aware that there is no rail behind me to prevent a fall into the deep, green barranco. 

“Nada, nada,” the man says and smiles. It’s nothing, it’s fine. With one hand, he opens the mysterious door and in a smooth motion, heaves the bundle of grass inside. Ah-ha! I think. Mystery solved. It’s a mountainside hay mow.

Inching away from the sheer drop-off, I continue upward. Suddenly, I hear the tinkle of bells. I look ahead and behind for the bobbing heads of goats, but there is nothing, just the grass man dashing nimbly down the trail. I walk on and the bells become louder. Still, no goats on the path. I stop and listen. There is sudden smacking sound. I look over and am startled to see a pair of goats sitting in the shadows of a large cave. They stare at me with deliberate interest, chewing placidly; heads swiveling in unison as I draw closer. They are seated upon a ledge above a large, open area of the cave where there are beds of straw and bowls filled with water and food, even a little gate fashioned from branches tied shut with rope. It is a very clever mountainside pen; the goats are cool and sheltered from the sun and in close proximity to the tableau grasslands at the top of the trail where they feed. 

I walk on. There is another switchback and then, another. Finally, I stand upon the plateau of land that I can see from the window of my little cabin, all the way across the ravine. It is a breath-taking place; abundant with golden grasses, dragon trees and majestic views of the sea. Blue on blue as far as the eye can see. I breathe a sigh of relief and bask in the rich colors. Me, the girl whose knees ache at the mere thought of heights. I made it. 

 

THE KITCHEN HOUSE

 

GARAFIA, ISLE OF LA PALMA, CANARY ISLANDS / 2016

The kitchen house is 150 years old; a traditional stone Canarian building that was about to collapse in on itself

when Antje stumbled across the property in 1992. Workers on the island helped her bring the crumbling ruins back to life, adding plumbing and electricity and also, refurbishing the dilapidated goat barn in the back acre which, at the time, was nothing but a huge, overgrown jungle.

During renovations, Antje lived in her caravan camper parked down in the town of Santo Domingo, 1500 feet of rocky switchbacks below the property. Gradually, the refurbished kitchen house and guest cabin blossomed into being and the goat barn became her home—an artful place of skylights, African cushions, colorful throws and vines curled around reclaimed beams.

I’m to go to the kitchen house whenever I like, Antje has said. When I arrive in the mornings, I unlatch the blue French doors and step into a woody hive from another era. It is earthily fragrant and totally quiet, save for the ticking of a clock. On one end of the room, wood shelves laden with recipe books, tins and baskets of fresh produce line the wall alongside a side board, gas stove, and sink. Bundles of herbs hang like voluptuous bats in the rafters. On the opposite end of the room there is a lofted bed and beneath it, a sofa and upright piano that Antje has brought from Germany. There is also a wood-burning stove, shelf crammed with books, and one modern touch—a fish tank where a pair of red, fan-tailed cichlids dart between the rocks.

On the table, my breakfast awaits: a bowl of gofio (locally-made porridge) topped with banana slices, four green arcs of fresh avocado, wedge of goat cheese, slices of salami, and slabs of fresh bread—three coarse and brown, four soft and white. There is also an orange and hot tea. And milk, butter, and jam. I begin with the gofio and then, devour the avocados atop the delicious brown bread. Thinking ahead, I pocket the orange, slice the cheese, and with the meat, make two small sandwiches for my hike.

This is the morning in Antje’s kitchen house—sunny, warm, and florid with rich aromas.

 

GARAFIA

 

SANTO DOMINGO, GARAFIA, ISLE OF LA PALMA, CANARY ISLANDS / 2016

The journey to Garafía is long. From Seattle to London, the flight is nine hours, then—three more to Barcelona.

Add to this, an overnight in the leafy Eixample neighborhood, a string of bus, metro and cab rides, four hours of flying to Tenerife and lastly, a 30-minute flight aboard a puddle-jumper to the smallest and northernmost island in the Canaries—La Palma.

At the La Palma airport, I rent a car and set off down LP-1—a coastal byway that careens through seaside towns, descends ravines, and climbs into blanketed mountains. I savor the loneliness of the drive—no one to shout over, to point excitedly with when a blinding fan of light explodes through a grove of pines. Godlight, some call it. I pull off by the side of the road and step out. All around me, wildflowers poke their purple and red heads through the dense grass. Enraptured, I stand on springy earth, admiring the perfect, gold beams that shoot skyward through the trees.

Back in the car, I am swathed in a cocoon of music, my hands at ten and two as I watch the sun spill rose-purple into the Atlantic. The island’s fabled dragon trees become a blur of spiked silhouettes outside my window. The farther north I go, the emptier the road. Will I arrive before nightfall? I am only slightly concerned. The island is small and the map embossed in my mind is clear. I round a corner and find myself on a narrow, single-lane stretch of highway bordering a steep, canyon wall. My tires crunch haltingly up the gravel incline and a hairline streak of delight runs through me.

*

It is late when I finally arrive in Santo Domingo, a tiny village in the northeast municipality of Garafía.

Darkness dampens the clouds as my host, Antje—flashlight in hand—leads me up a series of switchbacks to the cabin I will inhabit. It is a one room affair perched on the edge of a gorge. There is a patio at the entrance and an adjacent bath house. Inside, bunk beds stand opposite one large bed. Between them are a pair of bookshelves and a desk made from an old sewing machine stand. The front window frames a view of the ocean cradled by the rugged lines of the barranco (ravine) to the east, and the silhouette of Santo Domingo village to the west.

At this time of night, the little house is aglow with warmth—lamps, woven rugs, handmade curtains; wisps of style in the mode of driftwood, stones, and feathers.

It is a traditional Canarian home, Antje tells me. The thick stone walls and lava rock roof keep the interiors snug in the evenings and cool during the heat of the day. It is charming, comfortable, and has cost me a whopping $16 a night.

"Come next door," Antje says. "When you are ready to eat."

Wearily, I shrug out of my backpack and duck into the bathhouse to wash up.

*

“Spa-ghet-ti,” Antje says in a sing-song voice, as I enter the kitchen house. Her long, red hair shimmers in the lamplight as she moves from stove to table. “There is nothing better after a long trip.” She spoons pasta with red sauce onto my plate and nudges a bowl of lettuce towards me. “There is tea, also,” she adds, and pours boiled water into a pot. A subtle, reedy aroma fills the air.

I ask what it is.

“Lemongrass,” she replies. “From my garden.” 

She pours herself a tumbler of wine and we talk easily. She is from Germany. Her name is Dutch. “Ahnt-yeh”, she says when I ask how it should really be pronounced. But here in the village of Santo Domingo people simply call her, “Angie”. 

There is more pasta, more tea, and soon I am teetering on the edge of consciousness. I stumble back to my cabin and sink into bed—a large, dense mattress dressed with soft, blue sheets and bordered cozily by a wall lined with sheepskin. Gratefully, I give myself to sleep.

 

 

CABO PULMO

 

CABO PULMO, BAJA CALIFORNIA SUR, MEXICO / 2014

“Muchas ballenas!” Carlos glances at us over his shoulder as he points toward the hazy, blue horizon.

“Lots of whales,” I say, turning to Tor, who is hunched forward and peering out the windshield.

The truck guns sharply up a hill and barrels around a curve. Below, lies only rugged coast. No houses or hotels. Just a line of craggy peaks that flares down into a blanket of desert. Desert that tumbles into cliffs. Cliffs that rise, fortress-like, above the jade hem of the Sea of Cortez.

This is the Mexico of my mind—dusty and sun-baked, cacti with bright blossoms, scrub land, distant mountains that loom like moody warlords.

As we slowly roll down the hillside and into town, we observe Cabo Pulmo’s quiet streets with curiosity. Roosters strut across the road and behind a fence, a pair of cows chew sleepily. In the generous shade of a hibiscus bush, an elderly man sits, wide-brimmed hat tipped back, smiling good-naturedly at passersby.

We climb the steps of the bright, blue Dive Center. From the palapa-roofed restaurant, we catch another glimpse of the sea. It is startlingly close; its water shimmers like peacock feathers in the sunlight. We find an empty table and sit, steeped in a distinct, satisfying silence. Already, I feel the humid, salty air beginning to do its work—soaking my thirsty skin, falling like a healing mist in my hair, my eyes, and at the nape of my neck.

*

With little over a hundred residents and square mileage of twenty-seven miles, the village of Cabo Pulmo is tiny. However, the area’s impact as a protected national park is enormous. It has been heralded as the most successful marine reserve in the world. This is thanks to the people who once made their living fishing its waters. Twenty years ago, when the fish began to dwindle due to damage inflicted on the reef, the local fishermen found it more important to try and undo the destruction than continue to fish. Incredibly, they lobbied the Mexican government to declare the reef a protected area. By doing this, they not only saved the reef, but committed to shifting their livelihood from fishing to eco-tourism. The town now exists completely off the grid with everything run on solar power.

Only occasionally do we hear the whir of back-up generators rumbling in the deeply dark, nearly silent nights.

*

We quickly make ourselves at home in the garden casita at Encanto Pulmo, an artful, eco-friendly  house that we stumbled upon during an internet search for lodging. Encanto is a colorful, airy compound where the eye of an artist clearly reigns—no post left unpainted, no wall unadorned, yet all of the decor unpretentious and tasteful. Harmonious and bright. Even the garden is a cosmos all its own and home to a surprising assortment of colorful birds and butterflies.

Every facet of comfort is available at Encanto Pulmo. Our little house is stocked with a coffee maker, ceiling fan, fresh water dispenser, queen-sized bed, hot shower—even a chimenea, which we light eagerly at night in the courtyard. Serenaded by crackling flames, we moon-gaze from our loungers, sharing a packet of lemon Emperador cookies as we warm our toes.

Without the distraction of television, the evenings take on a sort of sonic charm. There is the nightly call of geckoes, fluttering orioles and desert larks, the moo of the odd cow and temperamental whinnies of the horses next door. With this peaceful soundtrack, we sit up reading in the cozy four-poster bed as night falls around us, often turning in as early as eight.

*

In the mornings, we stroll down the street to El Caballero—one of five restaurants in Cabo Pulmo and serves delicious regional food, such as juevos rancheros, and sopa de tortilla followed by a healthy serving of flan. Tito’s Restaurant, near the town entrance, offers excellent tacos and carne asada, and also has a small store featuring local art and souvenirs.

Our favorite place, however, quickly becomes La Palapa, mostly because of its breezy, seaside location—the perfect place to enjoy fresh, delectable fish tacos on a daily basis. It becomes a regular stop on our way back from the beach.

Within a day of landing in Cabo Pulmo, we become Pro Idlers. While we revel in this accomplishment, it leaves us oddly energized. One day, curious about the ever-stretching beach and the adjacent arroyo, we pack a lunch and hike the cliffs, exploring crags and rifts, all leading down to one sparkling beach after another. We spend endless hours climbing down gullies to find ourselves on pristine expanses of white sand, the crash of the ocean echoing in surround-sound off the cliff walls.

It is the perfect place to banish the last bastion of racing thoughts. Not another soul in sight.

Cabo Pulmo’s seemingly quiet and “nothing to it” appearance is deceiving. Our leisurely days are also strangely packed with random exploits that just sort of happen—examining tide pools, clambering over rock formations, spying on crab colonies, tracking a strange, hopping creature through the dunes, floating in the surf, snorkeling on the reef.

In the late afternoons, we sit on the beach and watch, “The Show”, an adroit gang of pelicans that hunt relentlessly in the shallows, darting beneath the water and re-surfacing with heads tilted back as they swallow their prey in quick, stabbing movements. Soon after this, our favorite part of the day arrives, the sun creeping inland toward the mountains, cooling our sunburned faces and signaling that it is once again time for—oh, yes—fish tacos.

 

DERRUMBE

 

MESILLA, GUATEMALA / 2012

“Siete y media por la mañana,” the man at the Tierra Maya counter says.

He waves a slip of paper at me. I nod and slide 600 pesos across the counter. The van will come for us at 7:30 AM.

I ask how long the trip will be. 

Muy rapido! Siete horas, mas o menos.”

Seven hours. An interesting interpretation of “fast”. But I figure it‘a better than walking. I shake his hand and set off to exchange pesos for quetzales before heading home to pack.

*

It was time to renew our Mexican tourist visas. 180 days flies when you're having fun. Instead of doing something perfunctory, we decide to take a little excursion to somewhere new—Lago Atitlan, Guatemala, a fabled lake in the Guatemalan highlands created when a volcano blew its top off, yet unsullied by all-inclusive hotels and MacDo's. The photos on the internet show shimmering waters lapping gently at the base of three volcanoes. Done. We need little more to convince us that this is a great way to renew our visas and have our minds blown.

The next morning, we wake at 6:30 and tidy the house, locking our small pile of valuables inside the impenetrable Second Room. Tor stations himself outside our front gate as I stuff last-minute things into our packs: a flashlight, headphones, wool hats. 7:30 comes and goes. Finally, at 8 AM, a white Hi-Ace, it's crazily-bungeed roof rack piled high with backpacks, makes its way awkwardly down our narrow street.

We crawl inside. Ten groggy faces greet us with the un-thrilled, early-morning regard that strangers reserve for other complete strangers at the beginning of a trip. Squashed next to the far back window, I flash back to our nightmare van ride from Palenque to Misol-Ha in January.

"Didn't we swear off vans once?" I glance at Tor and he grimaces, remembering the butt-numbing, character-building journey we had endured through the Chiapan mountains.  Ah, well.

*

We speed off toward the Guatemalan border, stopping only once for a bathroom break. By noon, we reach the frontera (border), at Mesilla. Overall, the crossing is simple—we hand in our exit cards and have our passports stamped on the Mexican side. Then, we pile back into the van, drive another five miles and queue up on the Guatemalan side to have our passports stamped and pay a twenty peso entry fee. Our bags are not searched and we barely spend any time in the offices. Not long after, our new van for the Guatemalan leg of the journey pulls up and the group piles in.

The road out of Mesilla is sunny and pleasant. Tarp-roofed dwellings give way to a ripple of small towns. Small stores and fruit vendors line the highway. Soon, the surrounding landscape becomes rugged and steep, almost Alpine in nature. Houses appear on far-off outcroppings and small flocks of cows and sheep roam the ravines. We whiz past flowering trees dripping with clumps of lilac and magenta petals that seem to burst off the branches, like fruit, themselves.

*

We have been traveling for about an hour when the van suddenly slows to a crawl, and then, disconcertingly, to a complete stop. Traffic is backed up, the driver explains. We could be in for a wait.  Any idea how long? We collectively ask, trying not to sound whiny.

“Yo no se.” He gives a noncommittal shrug before sauntering off to one of the two tiny restaurants that face each other across the highway.

It soon becomes apparent that this is no ordinary traffic jam.

Word ripples through the highway grapevine that a derrumbe, or landslide, blocks clear travel across a large section of the road ahead.

Vehicles are passing through one at a time and the backed-up traffic in both directions goes on for miles. Finally, we all hop out of the van and begin to scope out places in the shade.

Hours pass. We entertain ourselves with various activities. The Japanese man takes up residence on a nearby slab of concrete. The Swedish girl pulls out a battered copy of Charles Dickens. Like some sort of cheerful, vagabond chef, the dred-locked Brazilian guy prepares a meal of lentils and miso in his mess kit.

We watch the endless train of indigenous people as they walk past—elderly women in traditional dress trundle by with huge sacks of vegetables on their backs, thick straps secured around their foreheads for extra leverage. Sinewy men trot beside them, bent under the weight of large bundles of wood and metal in tarps lashed with rope, not one of them breaking a sweat. A small army of cart-wielding vendors roam the shoulders of the road, selling everything from fried chicken to shrimp cocktail, of all things.

Finalmente! Almost four hours later, our driver suddenly throws aside his torta and emits a round-up whistle signaling that traffic is moving again. Just as we gleefully run for the van, a smattering of fat rain droplets begin to fall. The engine revs and we rumble down the road, windows open, the mood inside one of near-giddiness as a fresh breeze filters through. The tone shifts, however, as we roll through the landslide area. Hastily-constructed shanties lean against the remnants of flattened houses. People mill about; uniformed soldados with guns slung over their shoulders half-heartedly attempt to direct traffic. It is, in essence, a hot, muddy mess.

The line of traffic going the other direction is a river of pained faces behind windshields. People are crammed in the backs of lorries with their belongings piled haphazardly next to them. Our driver lets out a long, low whistle as we inch past, finally clearing the bottleneck.

"Vamanos, amigos!" he crows, making the sign of the cross in the rear view mirror as we speed up the mountain and into the darkness.

*

Thanks to the derrumbe, we miss the boat. Literally. By the time we pulled into Panajachel, the main point of embarkation on Lake Atitlan, it is close to midnight and far too late to catch a lancha to Tzan Cruz, our final destination across the water. To make it more interesting, we are some of the van's last remaining passengers, most of our fellow travelers having gotten off at Xelha and other towns along the way.  

"So, uh, where are we going to sleep?"  Tor yawns groggily as we stand outside the van.

It‘s a good question.

Luckily, I have been sharing a seat with Ivan and his mother, Alma, an incredibly nice pair from San Cristobal. During the drive, with pride practically shooting out of her eyes, she tells me what a good son he is, how he is lucky to have a job with TelCel. As we wait for the driver to throw our bags down from the roof, Alma turns and asks if we want to follow them to their hotel. 

"Muy limpio, no es caro," she says reassuringly. Very clean, not expensive.  It sounds like heaven. And it is. Even if it is a penny-saver near the waterfront marked by an illustrious pink gate, which Ivan bangs on until a slat opens and a man's bleary face appears.

Seventeen hours after our day began, we climb the stairs towards sleep. Our room awaits with its leaky toilet, resident cockroach family, no towels or soap, and a rumpled bed that looks like it has been slept in already. Overjoyed, we pass out immediately.

 

JOSHUA TREE + SALTON SEA

 

JOSHUA TREE & THE SALTON SEA, CALIFORNIA, USA / 2017

We are in Joshua Tree—a massive terrarium of saguaro cacti, sagebrush and yucca trees as far as the eye can see,

where rock formations resemble giant, hunched orcs, and in the distance, a spiny ridge of mountains marches across the horizon. There is nothing quite like the colors of the desert here; a searing, blue-gold palette that scours the mind clean.

We roll through a nearby campground, where people have pitched tents and parked trailers in the shade of giant boulders. Climbers swathed in carabinered ropes and trudge past, crash pads cinched to their backs. Hikers bound from flat-topped boulders and become neon blips in the sagebrush. I look up and spy a woman in yoga regalia meditating on a sunny precipice.

Around the bend, there is a man standing on an outcropping. He is wearing a long, black trench coat (an odd choice for the sweltering, eighty-degree weather) and chain smokes as he glares down at passersby. I have a grim preoccupation with his strangeness, his unbelonging. Before I can stop myself, I imagine the dark barrel of an AR-15 poking out from beneath his mercenary-style cloak.

I make a face; send the thought away.

He is most likely doing nothing more than having a smoke as he exercises his right to wear climate-adverse clothes, but my mind has already run ahead, careening into unreality. These times are threaded with panic; the slightest snatch of headline pulls my heart into a knot.

It irks me that even here, in the heart of nature—a place that I have always found peace—I feel afraid. I’m fed up with this fear. I ask the desert sun to draw it out, burn it to chaff, to spirit it off on the wind. 

We drive on until Joshua Tree peters out and we are bumping along the moonscape of the Mojave Desert.

When we drop into the Imperial Valley we are met by a dozen aptly-named washes—Smoke Tree Wash, Fried Liver Wash, Sy Wash, Fink Wash, Wister Wash, Sand Wash, Salt Wash, Gravel Wash, Bug Wash, Cat Tail Wash, Marshy Wash, Deep Wash.

The vineyards lining the valley are edged by orange and lemon groves, the ivory lace of almond trees, tidy fields of red and green peppers.

We stop by the side of the road and I stand beneath a giant date tree. The scent of earth wafts from its trunk and my senses tunnel into the past—spring days in our Vashon Island garden, the sweet soil after a Midwestern rainstorm, Death Valley in August, when the tiniest wisp of wind is reason to rejoice.

As for the Salton Sea—it is a giant lake that was accidentally created in 1905 when irrigation canals were dug between the Colorado River and the Imperial valley. The waters flowed in steadily for two years, eventually creating the modern sea.

Today, the Salton Sea is fifteen miles wide and thirty-five miles long. It is the largest lake in California and is fed by the New, White Water, and Alamo rivers. It’s salinity “is greater than the Pacific Ocean but less than the Great Salt Lake.” The lake’s extremely high salinity started in the 1960’s. From then on, environmental harmony was lost; species began to die. Yet, its visage—a mist-covered plate of cobalt blue ringed by mountains—remains remarkably stunning.

We stop at the State Park and marvel that we are on the edge of a body of water that is two-hundred feet below sea level. I parry odd, nonsensical stabs of panic. How is the ocean not spilling over top of us? Drowning us like cereal in a bowl?

Further south, the community of Bombay Beach sits on the lake’s eastern shore. The name has a bright, exotic lilt. Yet, when we arrive, we find that it is essentially a ramshackle clutch of buildings cordoned inside a rectangle of piled-earth dikes.

We move slowly down the gravel streets, looking for signs of life. The town boasts 295 residents, but not a soul walks the streets. Where is everyone?

In lieu of tumbleweed or crickets, the whole place is shot through with the crumbled shells of houses—many charred and graffitied. Entire lots are filled with rusty trucks, cars with patchwork doors, mobile homes and RV’s that have seen better days. Fat, dry, headless palms edge the streets. And always, there is the come-and-go pinch of rotting fish on the breeze.

Finally, we spy movement—an old man walking out his front door. A few houses down, two women chat over a fence. A second man, on a bike with a banana seat and long, ape-hanger handlebars, veers toward us cartoonishly. Head cocked curiously, he stares at us as he passes. I wave. His eyes widen.

We leave oddly unsatisfied; unsure of what, exactly, we expected. We have seen a total of four people, which leaves only 291 Bombay Beach residents unaccounted for. What do they do? Where did they come from? What keeps them here?

Along the highway toward Niland, the road is a conga line of long-haul trucks. White, egret-ish birds tiptoe across the fields where migrant workers toil in leafy rows of kale, romaine, cilantro, and parsley. 

We turn south and notice the large numbers of border patrol trucks. 

“What are they doing up here?” We wonder aloud, ogling them as we pass. The men in the trucks look crisp and serious in their olive shirts and dark glasses, radios clipped to their sleeves.

Suddenly, we realize it’s we who are “down there”. We are skirting the city limits of Calexico, near the Mexican border. A very real part of us wants to keep going, to cross over. Go on the lam! Or at least, see the border from this side, from the ground. To envision how ugly and barbaric it would look to have a massive wall running the length of our countries.

We turn north on 86 and head for Kane Springs. Along the way, peeling billboards clamor: Salt-Free Water Vendor! Clean Dirt! Adult XXX Shop! Date Shakes! Hand-Delivered Gravel!

We reach Desert Shores where the remnants of giant canals still jut from the land, built in the 1950’s and 60’s, when the lake was a haven for weekenders.

At the height of its popularity, the Salton Sea was the desert’s version of Tahoe. It was where the party started and stayed.

There had been grand plans, once to build it so that more would come. It was to be the ultimate utopia of seaside resorts and marinas, a lake full of zipping speed boats and fishing fanatics! But in the end, stagnant waters would not sell. The failure of man-crafted nature and ultimately, the death of the fish, made it all fizzle. 

We roll through what’s left. Down by the water, furniture is strewn around a fire pit. The sun sets across a rocky lot where cats patrol the ditches. Across the way—the busted, concrete facade of “Our Place Saloon” stares out like a bewildered, fist-punched face. 

On the back wall of the still-operating MoneyGram building, however there is a surprise—the black and white mural of a woman entwined with rattlesnakes. Or, perhaps she is the rattlesnake? Whomever is what, and whatever it means, it’s a startlingly beautiful piece of art.

We pull away from Desert Shores and I think about how the loneliest, left-behind things are beautiful simply because they exist where other things no longer do. These are the Toughs and Hold-Outs—people and places unconcerned with what the outside world makes of them.

The drive has taken over half a day. As we drive north, the peach sky washes into a fertile blue. On the Salton Sea’s western shore, stanchions of palms ripple beneath a pinprick of white moon—a picture postcard of a desert oasis thriving beyond the limits of civilization. Or, the border of a lost kingdom, a disappeared dream.

Hoped for, done and gone.

 

CUMBERLAND ISLAND

 

CUMBERLAND ISLAND, GEORGIA, USA / 2016

With a population of fewer than twenty thousand, St. Marys is a sleepy southern town known as the embarkation point for Cumberland Island.

The drive down from Savannah is short—only one and half hours. Cute lodgings abound. Carrie and I rent a cozy, two-bedroom cottage stocked with all the essentials. It has a lovely porch, even a pair of bikes.

As we did in Savannah, we slide comfortably into our own rhythms, orienting ourselves in ways that resonate with each of us. I cycle around town; Carrie finds a secluded spot to do yoga by the water. Later, I wander main street and lurk in the cemetery, listening to birds and studying cracked tombstones until nightfall, when I splash home through the tide as it creeps stealthily up the side streets.

 
 

I first glimpsed Cumberland Island in a magazine piece about JFK Jr. And Carolyn Bessette's wedding. The photos of the island captivated me. They revealed an alluring, mysterious landscape—a wild tangle of trees slung between narrow expanses of windswept, golden sand; the natural habitat of wild horses, reptiles, winged and shelled creatures of all kinds. I knew that it was a place I needed to see for myself one day.

My introduction to the island begins at Cumberland Island National Seashore Visitor’s Center in St. Mary's where a ranger gives a short orientation before leading our small group to the Cumberland Queen, the ferry that will float us 45 minutes downriver to the island. Onboard, I chat with Tom, a structural engineer from Charleston who often visits the area. He reminds me of the importance of having two things when spending a day on the island: water and insect repellant. Luckily, the tiny concession stand on the boat sells both.

We land at Sea Camp Dock and I rent a bike that looks like a 1950's beach cruiser and handles like an 8-year-old's BMX. Upon this fine machine (legs pumping wildly, arms stretched like Gumby), I ride up and down the palm-fringed dirt road that bisects the heart of the island, then set out for Grayfield Beach where I attempt to portage a rust-colored pool of water to reach the ocean and am promptly swathed in a cloud of biting flies. Oops. Tattooed with welts, I retreat to the tree line and douse myself with the bug spray Tom so wisely advised me to buy, but that I had somehow neglected to apply. Maybe I should go south, I think. To the Dungeness ruins—the abandoned shell of the once-opulent Carnegie estate.

*

At the gates of the Dungeness mansion, I feel embraced by the past. I ponder what the majestic home might have looked like before its fiery demise in 1959 and

I circle the ruins—fractured brick bones of once regal chimneys and walls, the vaporous notion of turreted rooms and pillared halls hovering in the air like ghosts.

All that remains today is a smattering of statues and jagged foundations. 

I dismount, roll my bike over the grass to an empty picnic table that stands beneath the shade of a massive oak; the perfect place for a picnic lunch. After I have eaten, I lay back and stare up at the dome of large, moss-draped branches. A drone of insects rises up, hypnotic and soothing, like the evening sounds of summer camp or dusk in an Iowa cornfield. I nearly doze off when the binaural swell crescendoes in a sudden wave, cresting and plummeting with such a force that it gives me chills. I sit up and switch my field recorder on. As the sonorous refrain continues, I lay motionless in the sweltering heat, letting my ears and pulse rise and fall on the tide of their chorus.

 
 
 
 
 
 

Eventually, I retrieve my bike and pedal down a palm-lined slope, past abandoned out-buildings and over damp, rutted earth to the tidelands where, waves of tiny crabs scuttle in a giant, glittering carpet. At the marsh's edge, I  stand at a cusp of trees, conscious only of the thing that I had come so far to see—a band of wild horses, standing in the loam, feeding. Three adults and one foal. I watch them through the shimmering grass, lost in a sort of joyful ether as more of their band approaches from the shore. The lead horse walks with a chieftain's gate, a bright, white bird riding on its back. They nicker at me and I give them a wide birth but stay, ensconced by the trees. Watching them, I am struck by a deep sense of wellness, a heightened appreciation for my present state, my place in creation.

I remain for some time. Just me, the windy marsh, and eight wild horses.

Carrie and I find each other at Sea Camp Beach late in the the cloudless afternoon. She had arrived on a different boat, wandered the trails and found an idyllic place to soak in the golden heat. We talk nonstop on the ride back to the mainland about the timeless quality of the island, the mysterious dirt roads, pensive ruins, the horses.

At a Greek restaurant near the St. Marys marina, we collapse at a table, burnished by the sun, still buoyant from the day. The waiter brings dinner—gyros, iced tea, cucumber salad, and we continue to talk, stopping only when dusk begins to settle around us in an indigo haze.

We pedal home in the near-dark, gravel spitting out from beneath our wheels, unseen creatures rustling in the branches overhead. I hum the refrain of a long-lost song, something about humbling myself in the sight of the Lord. It has been a long time since I felt so loose and unburdened, without a care in the world. Home, for a time, is St. Marys—town of unbidden tides, the purple dust of night falling on church steeples, and the sad, curious cackle of graveyard birds. 

 

SAVANNAH

 

SAVANNAH, GEORGIA, USA / 2015

I love it when a journey is sparked by a single sentence.

In August, my sister-in-law, Carrie emails me, primed for adventure but undecided about where to go. Either come with me, or inspire something I must do, she writes.

I need little provocation. 

Let's drink mint juleps, wander ruins and see the wild horses of Cumberland IslandI suggest. 

Yes! She replies. I’m already half there.

Our escape is planned within the week.

We are of similar ilk, Carrie and I—travelers and creatives who glean inspiration from experiencing new things. We enjoy solo travel because we are fond of solace, autonomy and by nature, crave our own, contemplative spaces. The decision to travel together seemed like a no-brainer. 

After landing in Jacksonville, we rent a car and head north. We decide to start in Savannah and slingshot back down through Cumberland Island, ending in St. Augustine, Florida. As we drive, we listen to 80’s music and talk nonstop, finally pulling up to a charming rental in Savannah's historic district—a brick house with elegant bones and an ivy-strewn facade.

We walk slowly through the looming hallways and into the living room, gaping up at the 30-foot ceilings with crown moldings from an era long past. In the kitchen, Carrie fling s open a large window and leans out, as if she might launch herself into the green expanse of the back garden. Or suddenly fly upward—into a net of Spanish Moss.

“I like Savannah,” she says with relish.

*

The next day, we set off in opposite directions with plans to meet for dinner.

Later, we chose a Thai place, stylish and quiet, and trade stories over curry and wine. Carrie had explored the riverfront and  Victorian District and delightfully—bought a dress we had admired the night before in the window of a local shop. I had gone on a photo safari and wound up at the Cotton Exchange and Factor’s Walk—a cobblestoned row of historic buildings (now, a lively riverside district of shops and restaurants) named for the men—the factors—who set the price of Savannah cotton throughout the late 1800’s. At Barracuda Bob’s, I ordered a fried green tomato sandwich and people-watched. (And, thanks to a Russian Mule that kicked me squarely between the teeth, got unintentionally sauced in the process.)

While on our separate excursions, both Carrie and I had admired the Georgia Queen riverboat and El Galeon San Pelayo (a Spanish tall ship docked along the Savannah River). We had also strolled around the iconic fountain at Forsyth Park where, street musicians blossomed as colorfully as azaleas—a trumpeter delivering the earnest, plaintive notes of "Hey Jude" and one square over, a guitarist singing and strumming with abandon, eyes closed, head bobbing to the rhythm of the Rolling Stones.

 
 
 
 

Our dinner ends sweetly with a towering chocolate dessert (the kind that extrudes more chocolate with each press of the spoon) and we chat with restaurant staff about Savannah’s surprising diversity, mellowness, even its enjoyable spookiness, and how everywhere there is the enigmatic tug of history. On the walk home through Monterey Square we stop to inhale the scent of some blossoming thing on the breeze.

“I love this,” Carrie whispers.

The rasp of insects billows around us as we stand stock still—ears perked to the sounds of night; our noses in the air. 

 
 

A few blocks away, our apartment is lit like a hurricane lamp from within. We creep about in our adjoining rooms—cavernous chambers, where night leaks in through the tops of tall, shuttered windows. Enfolded in the shadowy creak of ancient timber, we settle in our respective nests, eyes heavy with sleep and the satisfying abundance of new moments—some secret, some shared, and those yet to come.

 

OUT TO SEA IN TULUM

 

TULUM, QUINTANA ROO, MEXICO / 2012

It was time to visit Tulum—the beloved Mayan mecca of the eco-friendly faithful.

We had heard tales of Tulum’s fabled magic from island-dwelling and bohemian friends, alike. While living in the Riviera Maya, my husband and I decided to see what all the fuss was about and booked a week at an eco-hotel on a stretch of beach near the Sian Kaan nature preserve.

As for our eco-dwelling? Sublime. A veritable palapa palace. Our roomy bungalow featured a peaked roof that gave the space a luxurious, airy feel. Screened, slatted windows, a large ceiling fan and the ever-present ocean breeze kept the room naturally cool and comfortable. The hotel’s bar and open-air restaurant were a mere twenty feet away. The ocean lapped invitingly at our front door. Very quickly, the fabled Tulum Effect took hold. And as for the satisfying blur that ensued?  We walked.  Swam.  Talked.  Snorkeled.  Ate.  Read.  Slept.  Hammocked.  We even helped out some baby sea turtles ...

*

One evening, as we were eating pizza at a neighboring beach resort, our waitress rushed up to the table, her eyes wide with excitement.

Baby sea turtles!” She said breathlessly. “They’ve hatched and lost their way and are trying to cross the road instead of going back into the ocean!”

As if it were on fire, the restaurant quickly emptied, patrons spilling down the steps to the beach, flashlights swinging in haphazard arcs.

“Spread out, they’re already near the road!” the restaurant owner yelled as he hurried past. He was already moving towards the water, lugging a metal bucket full of tiny, squirming turtles.

I looked down at the sand. It undulated in the dim light, alive with the jumbled bodies of the confused turtles. As I bent to gently pick one up,

I was awed by the sensation of its fluttering body between my hands. Its flippers beat the air indignantly, almost wing-like.

We pulled out our collapsible lanterns and scrambled in all directions, sometimes on all fours, gathering up the little turtles as carefully as we could. Their miniature flippers whirled like pint-sized turbines as they scooted across the beach with surprising speed as they formed a swell of wriggling bodies that roiled across the sand.  After we gathered them, we brought them out into the water, wading out as far out as we could before releasing them into the waves.

“Kill the lights!” One man shouted back towards the restaurant, which glowed from within like a giant lantern, “They think it’s the moon!”

My husband began to walk farther into the surf with his lantern hovering close to the water. Gradually, the platoon of tiny turtles we had just released into the waves began to swim toward its glow. He continued to walk slowly, chest-deep in the tide, his lantern skimming the surface as he guided them out to sea. I stood and watched them as they darted and dove, rising on the crest of the waves as they fought to make headway.  It seemed as if they were making progress.  We could only hope.

We slogged repeatedly back and forth through the surf, our clothes drenched with seawater, buckets of baby turtles in tow.  Finally, the restaurant owner stopped moving and stood on the sand bar, hands on his hips, his apron flapping loosely in the breeze.

“I think that’s it,” he said, as we scoured the beach, scanning for holdouts.  “We did what we could; they’re all out to sea. Hopefully some will make it ... ”

A quick sweep with flashlights proved that no baby turtles remained on land.

Gracias! Buen trabajo.” The restaurant owner thanked each of us as our little group of impromptu rescuers began to disband.

We walked slowly down the beach to our hotel.  The sound of waves filtered through the grove of coconut trees in front of our bungalow. From our porch, we could see into the nearly deserted beach bar next door. Our favorite waiters, Johan and Refugio were clowning around, practicing bottle-twirling tricks in the amber glow of the lamplight. My husband settled into a chair and put up his feet, not bothering to wipe off the sand.

I collapsed in the hammock, the palm fronds above me parting in the breeze to reveal a glittering field of stars. My thoughts returned to the baby sea turtles, embarking on their journey. Once dangerously off-course, they were now swimming with determination through the ocean. Pushing out fearlessly into the unknown.

Vaya con dios, I thought, as I recalled the sight of their flippers disappearing into the surf.  Godspeed.

 

BRIGHTON

 

BRIGHTON, ENGLAND / 2015

The morning is cool and soft, the air riddled with brine. I stand in Brighton Station amid a swirl of travelers

and muffled announcements. I cradle my still-warm coffee, slightly stunned at how quickly I’ve arrived. The train ride from London couldn’t have been much more than an hour. I pluck a map from the nearby kiosk and join the steady stream of people flowing south toward King’s Road where, I find cheerful things all in a row—a gleaming pier, string of pubs, £2-a-day beach chairs, even a Ferris wheel. A smile unfurls as I squint into the gauzy air. My dream of the English seaside is real. 

*

In the mornings, I eat at a café in the artists quarter. The owners are a charming pair; she is quiet and reserved, the epitome of warmth in her flowered apron. Her husband greets patrons with a hearty, booming voice. 

“There you are, my darling,” he says, setting coffee at my elbow. “Stay as long as you like, no need to rush off.”'

His wife makes the rounds; straightening, serving. She stops to stare out at the sea from time to time. If I happen to look up, she breaks from her reverie and asks, “Alright, love?”

“You’re a proper bookworm,” the man says one morning, nodding at my borrowed copy of Larkin poems. “Is poetry your thing?” 

“That, and history,” I reply.  

He says if it’s history I fancy, I ought to take a peek in their local fishing museum. “It’s just down the way,” he says, with a jab of his thumb. “More than you ever wanted to know about Brighton, and then some.” 

I thank him for this suggestion. And when the last crumb of my pan au raisin has been devoured and my coffee drained, off I go.

*

From its humble beginnings as a fishing enclave, Brighton evolved into one of England’s prime leisure destinations. Royals were among its first visitors; the town boasts a Mughal-inspired palace built in the 1700’s by Prince George IV who favored Brighton for the sun and sea air (but also, because it was an ideal place to rendezvous with his mistresses). 

In the 19th century, an influx of tourists inspired Brighton’s fishermen to offer sailing cruises( after pulling up nets for the day) on their hastily scoured “pleasure boats”. Closer to shore, aristocrat ladies soaked discreetly and claustrophobically inside bathing machines—tiny, canvas-roofed houses wheeled into the frigid waters by enterprising locals who charged them dearly for the service. 

With each new era, came new diversions—diving clubs, swimming contests, regattas. The Golden Age of pier-building dawned in the mid-1800’s.

Brighton’s Piers were places of glamor and culture where people went to dine, dance, and socialize.

A theater was built, then a concert hall. Musicians and artists added Brighton to the circuit; Punch and Judy enlivened the weekend set. Brighton’s West Pier enjoyed its peak of popularity in 1918, when as many as two million people visited.  Today, only one Pier remains—the Brighton or “Palace” Pier. The skeleton of the once-dazzling West Pier (ruined by fire in the 1970’s) still stands in the southern surf but sadly, is beyond repair. 

I find a canvas lounger next to a railing and settle in with a pint, feet propped, wind whipping my hair into a flag. In the water below, three boys backflip off the stern of a speedboat, each one surfacing in a sudden, dramatic spray. They perform for hours, like glistening harbor seals. 

*

As in every new place, my joy lies in walking. One afternoon, I stop to lace my fingers through the fence at Pavilion Gardens and stare in at the city’s largest architectural oddity—The Royal Pavilion, George IV’s epic “pleasure palace”—a sprawling edifice adorned with Indian minarets and ornamental arches befitting a Maharaja. It is visually stunning. Glorious, even. Yet, absurdly out of place. 

I walk around to the entrance and pay a bored-looking teenager £18. She hands me a headset, an audio player and advises three hours for the tour, should I wish to do it properly. 

England’s King George IV (b.1762 — d.1830) built the Royal Pavilion while in the throws of an affair with Maria Fitzherbert, a woman some years older whom he considered “the wife of his heart and soul”. They later married in secret, then drifted apart, and lovelorn George pursued dalliances with a chain of random women. George’s truest romance, however may well have been with his Pavilion. He spared no expense, enlisting renowned architect, John Nash and interior designer, Frederick Crace to bring his vision to life. 

The visual drama of the palace unfolds with theatrical flourish,

beginning in the Long Gallery where visitors are met with an array of illusory textures: enigmatic Chinese “nodding figures”, simulated bamboo furniture and enfiladed “infinity” mirrors.  This is followed by the exotic landscape of the banquet hall, filled to bursting with thousand-shell chandeliers, faux palm trees, dragon-shaped lanterns and floor-to-ceiling tapestries infused with secret freemason symbols (George IV was the first freemason to become the King of England). 

Thrilling to the eye? Yes. Aesthetically confusing? Extremely. At first, the palace feels almost manic—is it Neoclassical? Gothic? Chinese? But three hours and two floors later, it ceases to matter. Its beauty lies in its exquisite wildness; its blunt rejection of propriety. 

As for George IV, his love of the bright and bizarre garnered him few fans. He was scorned for his gluttonous lifestyle and eventually died—blind, obese and heirless—attended only by his page at stately Windsor Castle, a world away from his seaside playground of mercurial delights. 

*

I stumble back out into the still-bright afternoon, mind ablaze with the exotic colors of George’s Indo-Chinese palace. Amid an eclectic string of shops in The Lanes, I find a woman selling Miao jewelry—exquisite designs of hammered metal and cloth, traditionally made in China’s Guizhou province. 

I point to a beautiful ring in her display case. “Miao?” I ask (painfully aware that I sound like a cat). 

“Yes! Please look.” She regards me with interest.

As I move closer my eyes catch upon a second piece—a silver cuff with a tribal motif. Before I can speak, she deftly slides it onto my wrist. 

“Looks so good,” she murmurs sagely.

I nod and stifle a laugh. And know that I will be £15 lighter on the way home. 

*

Evening drifts down. The aroma of toasted bread and curry chicken stops me in my tracks

and I join the queue at a baguette stand in the park. Somehow, I unearth £2 from the bottom of my bag and a man hands me a bag crinkling with savory heat. Clutching it to my chest, I rejoin the expanding surge of foot traffic. The loose strands of day-trippers have swelled into high-spirited crowds on St. James Street, now a river of shouts and jostling limbs; jubilant voices heralding the start of the weekend.

After dinner, I sit coiled by the window, a mug of tea steeping lazily on the sill as I conjure moments for later use: mornings at the cafe, the cozy sag of my beach chair, gulls squawking above the implausibly blue sea ...

Night arrives, a lavender bowl of sky that deepens to black. It is just me now, I think, with my book and my tea and these two pale birds tussling on a branch, but then—a punch of laughter from the pub below, whistle of a kettle, the red, pulsing dot of a plane as it glides above the treetops.

Far beyond these tiny explosions, the heavens begin to fill with slow-blossoming stars—a vain, defiant clamoring in the southern English sky.  And I am reminded that no matter how solo my travels are, it is never just me.  

 

ONE NIGHT IN DHOLPUR

 

RAJASTHAN, INDIA / 2008

Arriving in New Delhi for the first time is like standing on the edge of a cliff.

Beyond the arrival doors there is an endless sea of people, the grime and exhaust of a city of 21 million, and an all-consuming tidal wave of sound. As the cacophony crescendoes, overwhelm twitches at the base of my brain like a spark threatening to ignite. I dampen it with reason: This is travel. This is the world. This is what you came for.

The snaking lines swallow us up and eventually, we stand before officials who nod and grunt as they stamp our visas. Then, it is out into the pulsing sea of people.

In the paralyzing crush, we catch our first glimpse of Ranjit, the Sikh security specialist who will be our driver. His mere presence is like a very polite, measured warning. He is towering in stature with a closely trim beard and midnight blue turban. I am Sikh, he says without a word. I am skilled and serious. I will not trifle.

Naveen, the Go India representative who has organized our itinerary, emerges from the throng, suave and ebullient in a grey suit; not a trickle of sweat nor a glossy, black hair out of place. He shouts my name, reaches through the humid night air to grasp my hand, head bobbing and waggling in the gesture that we will soon come to recognize, puzzle over, and unconsciously expect. I smile and check his credentials, but that is all. The monsoon of sound drowns all hope of conversation. We hand our bags to Ranjit, who places them into a very black, very air conditioned Landrover. I am keenly aware that this is privilege: to move through Delhi’s cauldron of relentless heat, moisture, and humanity while ensconced in a climate controlled bubble of quiet and calm. It is a sleek and ostentatious exception to the rule in a country where the average laborer earns $20 USD a week, and an upper middle class worker pulls in around $300 per month.

I am in India for work, myself. To shoot and document for an Asia travel company. To meet tour operators, inspect hotels, see sights. I am also there to accompany Kathy, my sister-in-law, as she visits the birthplace of Deepali, her daughter adopted from India, for the first time.

When Ranjit finally pulls to a stop in front of a three-story guest house in the residential area of New Rajinder Nagar, Meera, the owner, greets us at the door with the hushed delight of a consummate hostess. She is lively and relaxed, the exact opposite of our jet lagged dispositions.

“Come, come!” She beckons us inside. The translucent edges of her emerald Salwar Kameez float out behind her as she leads us upstairs.

She chatters softly to us as John, her houseman, pours tea. Slowly, I bring the cup to my lips, which are numb and buzzing. Meera has lived all over the world—Singapore, Indonesia, Romania. Finally, she returned home to open a place where visitors could come for rest, relaxation, and a first-hand introduction to Indian culture by way of good food, cultural immersion, and convivial conversation.

"Shub ratri," she finally murmurs, floating off. Good night.

My room's walls are red brick, the tile on the floor is slick and cool. A large fan whirs overhead as I unpack, and new nocturnal sounds filter in through the balcony. Eventually, I tumble into bed; all weight, no grace.

Hours later, I awake with a start, eyes snapping open to the sound of footsteps and a strange, syncopated pattern—Bang! Bang! Bang! ... Bang! ... Bang! I peek out through filmy curtains.  Below, a man is walking around the block, rhythmically slamming the end of a large staff into the ground, over and over. 

In the morning I mention this to Meera.

"That is the night watchman," she explains, pouring tea and sliding roti and aloo tiki onto my plate. "He bangs the stick to show that he is hard at work deterring thieves." 

The table is in the garden, and I squint up at the army of birds twittering inside the green-yellow heart of the Peepul tree. At that very instant, the men at the mosque across the street began their morning prayers. Their voices, splayed and fragmented at first, finally rise together in one deep, sonorous song, “Allahu Akbar!” 

Listening, I allow my shoulders to drop, and close my eyes. When I open them again, John is standing at my elbow, patiently waiting for me to return to earth.

"You would like juice?" Smiling, he holds out a pitcher sloshing with burgundy liquid.

Eagerly, I nod, and watch as he fills my glass with the coldest, sweetest pomegranate juice I will ever taste.

*

Later that morning, our excursions begin at the bustling market of Chadni Chowk.

Melting into the crowd is easy, but not getting our feet run over, or our limbs sliced off by passing vehicles proves trickier. 

After browsing the market, Naveen flags down a pair of cyclos and we set off for the Jama Masjid, the only mosque in the world where women are allowed. On the way, we take in the sights; the streets crammed with goods and people going about their business in alleyways, doorways, even the narrow spaces between the crush of cars. 

Hijras, members of the age-old intersex population, who identify as neither male or female, meander between the lanes of cars in colorful saris, clapping their hands and offering blessings in exchange for coins.

A beggar, a man with no legs, and only one arm, his body sitting atop a rolling cart, pushes himself along with a block of wood. In front of the Jama Masjid another man with distinct disabilities begs for alms; his legs and arms are bent so severely that he almost appears to be four-legged. 

We climb the many steps to the top of the Jama Masjid and hand our shoes to a man who will watch over them for 20 rupees. Inside, the cool stone soothes our dusty feet. We walk out into the open prayer yard, which can house as many 25,000 Muslims at once, and imagine endless lines of bodies prostrate on the painted, white lines. In the center of the yard, a fountain bubbles. Children frolic, filling up an empty plastic bottle with water while a woman splashes herself. At the far end, two men stand, calf-deep as they pour water over their heads. 

The ceiling inside the Mosque seems to soar. We stand silently in the cool, dark, expanse, admiring the ornate designs on the walls, then walk to the landing to look out over the haze of New Delhi. The city seems to spill on endlessly, cars upon cars, throngs upon throngs, no end in sight.

We continue our city tour with a trip to Rajghat—the tomb of Mohandas K. Gandhi (or, Mahatma). The gardens, a gentle, sloping line of manicured grounds, cradle his roped-off resting place, where an eternal flame flickers inside a lantern, symbolizing the undying spirit of compassion.

At India Gate, the national monument honoring the Indian soldiers who fought alongside the British in World War, we stand next to heavily armed soldiers. Down by the river, Indian families indulge in paddleboat rides and ice cream. I am absorbed with taking a photo when a gang of young girls suddenly approaches, and in the blink of an eye, I feel someone grab my right hand. The prick of a sudden sting makes my mouth drops open, and I look down to see a girl pull a sharp, ink-tipped instrument across my skin, nonchalant as you please. She’s trying to Henna me, I think. I try to snatch my hand away, but the girl hangs on for dear life. Soon, I am dragging her with me down the causeway as she entreats loudly, absurdly, "Please, Miss! I draw just one flower!"

I look down at this pretty child, her determined face marked with mysterious smudges. Her grip on my wrist is iron-clad. One thing is clear: she will not be ignored.

But in that moment, Naveen intervenes. He scolds her loudly in Hindi and sends her away with a sour expression. There’s no harm done, I tell him, and watch her go with a blossoming ache of curiosity. I wonder where she will spend her next hours. Whether or not she will find willing customers, and make enough rupees to buy something to eat.

I catch my breath at the next stop on our tour—Hanumayan's Tomb, where we walk through a series of archways and ornamental buildings that precede the fountain-lined causeway that leads to the final tomb—a red sandstone replica of the Taj Mahal.  Smaller in size, but identical in architecture, Hanumayan's Tomb is a simple and elegant. We climb up the steep steps to the top level, where we take in expansive view of the twin towers of the Jama Masjid in the distance.

At the nearby Qutab Minar, or the "Victory Tower" erected by a Muslim emperor after he conquered the region, we circle beautiful ruins, noting that sadly, the Hindu carvings that once covered the buildings were "rubbed out" (literally) by the Muslim invaders. The Qutab Minar itself, ornate in decoration, looms impressively. We are told that it is some 600-odd steps to the top, but do not make the climb.

By the end of the day, we are limp in the withering heat. True to form, Naveen’s energy has not waned and he cheerfully informs us that a dinner awaits in Vasaj Kint, at a restaurant called, Sahara. It is a touristy but pleasant outdoor setting, complete with dancers preforming to a buzzing PA system—a glitteringly-dressed Kashmiri troupe that travels from table to table. At their heart is a small, costumed boy who, for 10 rupees, exacts intricate moves and raises his dramatically painted eyebrows in time with the drums.

*

A few days later, our sojourn to the south begins. As we head deeper into Rajasthan, we melt into the rhythm of the road, watching long stretches of fields roll by, punctuated by the odd village, finally stopping for lunch at a roadside establishment where shopkeepers peddle Cokes and souvenirs. As gangs of curious children press themselves against the car, I snap a photo of a surly man with a listless looking monkey chained to his arm. He sees me and taps on the window, palm out, demanding money.

“Don’t,” Ranjit says, with a lift of his hand when I ask if I should give him something. He shakes his head curtly and stares hard at the man, who finally turns and shuffles away.

As we drive on, Ranjit offers up small fragments of his life back home, in Bangladesh. He has a wife and two daughters. Sometimes his mother-in-law, who lives with them, is a pill. In keeping with Sikh tradition, the hair beneath his neatly wrapped turban has never been cut. He was a Gurkha (a soldier) by trade, but driving and security have become the best living, although his work keeps him far from home for months at a time. He is lonesome for his wife and daughter, but counts himself lucky to have such a well-paying job.

We bump across potholes and cross checkpoints, marveling at the beautiful countryside, the bucolic farms. A sense of ease permeates.

With Ranjit, we are assiduously looked after. Wherever we go—he goes. Each morning, he waits expectantly by the car: legs slightly spread, shoulders back, arms folded in front of his barrel chest.

We are staying in a string of heritage homes—palaces, by all accounts—and as we are shown to our luxury suites, I can’t help but wonder where Ranjit disappears to every night. One day, I ask him where he sleeps.

“I have no complaints,” he says, without a hint of acrimony. It turns out that he stays in the servant’s quarters, where they give him a cot and serve him food. “It’s quite comfortable,” he claims.

One morning as we are preparing to set out, he tosses his newspaper into the seat beside him and scowls into the rearview mirror.

"What's wrong?" I ask.

"Such bad people." He bends forward and squeezes the bridge of his nose as if warding off a headache.

“Who’s bad?”

With a heavy sigh, he tells us. The day before, a group of drunken wedding revelers in a nearby town plucked a small boy from his bicycle. They raped and then, murdered the child in a barn.

We sit in horrified silence.

"Very bad people," he repeats with a shake of his head. He turns the key of the Lincoln Navigator, which starts with a reassuring purr.

*

We stay one night in Dholpur, a quiet outpost on the road to Agra, and are hosted at the Raj Niwas, a 19th-century palace shrouded in private gardens. The hour is late when we finally arrive, famished and exhausted. It has been one of those days, both of us a bit on the brink, slightly homesick and road-worn.

The proprietress, an animated woman appropriately named “Bubbles”, settles us into a cavernous suite at the top of an elegant staircase. With bleary glee we examine the elaborate bath with eight shower heads, ornate dressing chamber, menagerie of large, stuffed creatures, wall-to-wall antique photos of the palace’s original owners, and a forty foot ceiling decorated with intricate tile.

Cocooned in the unfamiliar silence, we murmur our relief over creamy cups of Masala tea, and turn in.

I lie awake in the dark, listening to night sounds and imagining the drowsy heads of dynasty rulers being lulled to sleep in our very beds, centuries before.

*

The next day is overcast and we finally visit the Taj Mahal. The atmosphere is dense and muggy. We stop to buy souvenirs from men selling wares in the street. They walk in noisy groups of twos and threes, huge bunches of shiny, tinkling trinkets slung over their shoulders. I feel the press of the dizzying heat as I shove a fistful of rupees through the car’s open window, sweat trickling down my back as I make my selection beneath the watchful eyes of an industrious hawker.

Inside the gates, the Taj Mahal looms at the far end of the causeway. It seems to shimmer and hover in the heavy air. Since it is not a day for pristine photos ,I find myself drawn to a quartet of Brits—two couples, obviously on holiday, laughing uproariously as they take turns posing on the fabled “Princess Diana” bench, the iconic tomb rising behind them.

Unobtrusively, I snap away as they photograph each other. As beautiful as the Taj Mahal is, I find that I am more captivated by the unbridled laughter of these globe-trotting friends than I am by the Eighth Wonder of the World.

After we leave Agra, we drive an hour west to one of the best preserved examples of Mughal architecture in India. The ancient complex of Fatehpur Sikri lies abandoned; its eerie emptiness lending a romantic air to the barren buildings, once lively with kings, consorts, and entourages.

The building that intrigues me the most is the Diwan-i-Khas, or "Hall of Private Audience", renowned for its ornate central pillar, and for being the place where Emperor Akbar held court with leaders of different religions, encouraging interfaith discourse. Evidence of this can be found in the inscription in the Buland Darwaza, or "Victory Arch", which says:

"Jesus, Son of Mary said: The world is a bridge, pass over it, but build no houses on it. He who hopes for an hour may hope for eternity. The world endures but an hour. Spend it in prayer, for the rest is unseen".

We are exhausted by the time we arrive in Jaipur. Our hotel is sleek and modern, and (admittedly weary of naan and roti and curry) we nearly squeal with delight at sight of the fruit platter that greets us in the room.

*

The next day, Ranjit takes us to visit the Amber Fort. The opulence of the Amber Palace engulfs us as we wander through, our guide’s voice hovering like a narrator in the air of the dim halls. Intriguing tales of assassination schemes, harem cat fights, secret passageways. Later, I feel my way down one such narrow, slippery corridor that covertly connects to the Maharaja's massive chambers,

I can almost hear the Maharanis’ furtive whispers bouncing off the tunnel's shimmering walls, worn smooth from time.

Jaipur's City Palace complex is like walking through an Indian fairytale. The famed Peacock Gate of the Chandra Mahal (the present home of Jaipur's royal family) exudes romance with every drop of color on its fabulous façade. In the colonnaded breezeway of the palace’s Diwan-I-Khas, we gape at the world's largest sterling vessels, forged from 14,000 silver coins for the sole purpose of containing the Maharaja's sacred Ganges water while he traveled. Outside, musicians coax cobras from woven baskets and turbaned guards roam in crisp, white kurtas.

It is in the Maharani's Palace that I come across a fascinating exhibit dedicated to the Maharani Gayatri Devi, the famed Princess of Jaipur (and Jaipur's last queen), an alluring and multi-talented royal, whose flawless face is an icon of classic, Indian beauty. It seems fitting that she entertained her contemporary, Jackie Kennedy in Jaipur, where her American friend enjoyed her very first elephant ride.

Next up is Udaipur, the City of Lakes. Situated on the shores of Lake Picola, its is bright, breezy, and irrepressibly romantic. We climb slowly to the top of Jagdish Temple, fingertips lingering on bas relief carvings along the way. Inside the City Palace we snake our way through a myriad of courtyards and pavilions. I linger in front of a cluster of bright-colored panes of glass on one of the many verandas. As I peer through one pane after another, the view of the city below swims in a mosaic of bright, jumbled hues.

Upon returning to the hotel, we are politely reminded that more touring awaits. A boat outing has been arranged and later that afternoon, we are motored to the island palace of Jagmandir, in the center of the lake, where we have lunch.

*

Not far from Udaipur, by way of a long and winding mountain road, is Ranakpur, a Jain temple built in 1458 AD.

It is famed for its ethereal maze of intricately-carved, white marble columns. Inside, our senses still; devotees silently wind their way around us on their way to burn offerings and pray. A group of monks prepare bowls of saffron and turmeric with which to apply their kumkum, or "third eye", the dot placed upon the forehead believed to connect a human being to the realm of the divine.

Afterwards, we drive more curving roads to the Devi Garh, the former hilltop palace of Raghudev Singh II, now a luxury hotel. Outside the palace walls, the Aravali Hills ring the dusty town of Delwara, which spreads like a worn, pastel carpet at the feet of the Devi Garh's imposing gates.

Once inside, we are led through an endless maze of garden paths, elegant dining halls, sprawling living rooms, and airy balconies.

“Please, have a look." Sheera, the guest relations liaison gestures down at a sprawling courtyard. "It is The Palace Suite," she adds proudly. She informs us that it is a room much favored by American movie stars and can be secured for a mere $1700 US per night. We squint down at the suite's black marble swimming pool and sun deck where a pale guest yawns and turns over in her lounger.

We drive ninety miles south, to Dungarpur, where it’s disturbingly easy to make ourselves at home in the 19th century lake house of Maharawal Udai Singhji II.

We discover that Udai Bilas Palace is a heavenly place to wind down; it is the perfect place to drink G&T's, lounge by the infinity pool, and rifle indulgently through back issues of OK Magazine. At dusk, the fruit bats put on a show, spiraling up from the trees before flying in a quivering blanket across the lake.

Late in the evening, we sit down to dinner at a long, marble table with a pool of water shimmering at its center. A steward steps forward and lights a small armada of floating candles and I realize that I have quickly become accustomed to the lush, romantic world of maharajas, majaranis, and their palaces. Yet, as the waitstaff shuffle nervously behind our chairs and I gaze up at the chandelier of stars that lights our meal, I realize that stultifying magic and all, it is quite simply: time to go home.